Caffeinated Thoughts...: September 2009

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

The Three Words !!!!

It was a cold Sunday morning and the sound of the alarm distrubed Rahul's sleep.. It was thiry minutes past 5 in the morning and he had to force himself to get up giving up his heart's desire for those extra long 5 minutes of sleep.. Yet his face was full of enthusiasm and was basking in glory because today was the day he and Neha had planned to go to an hill station for her birthday.. They had planned to start their trip at 8 a.m in the morning.. He was so excited about the trip that he got ready by 7 a.m.. He had dressed himself up in his favourite denim jeans with a pleasing green coloured shirt..

He was 30 minutes prior schedule and was supposed to pick up Neha at 7.45 a.m in her apartment and start their holiday. Neha was a beautiful lady, a dream girl for any guy.. Her auburn coloured hair, naughty eyes and ever smiling face was a pleasure for anyone to see. She was understanding,caring, ambitious and a child at heart.. Rahul had always felt lucky to have Neha with him and they had planned to get married within a year's time.. This was the second birthday of Neha they were celebrating together and Rahul wanted to give her a surprise.. He had planned this holiday more than a month before and had done so much research, even more than what he did for his project, selecting the resort and the place..

The resort was located atop the hill surrounded by a calm, serene atmosphere.. The villa he had booked was constructed completely full of woods and glasses.. The villa was surrounded by thick, dense forests and the sound of trickling water from the near-by stream gave the extra rejuvenation suitable for a perfect holiday.. The aroma of spices and vegetation from the dense forests as the zephyr blows would make anyone forget oneself. It was the perfect place anyone could imagine of and Rahul was lucky enough to spend the holiday with his only love at this place..

He called Neha around 7.15 and she was equally as thrilled as Rahul was, which he could feel easily from her voice. Rahul said "Happy birthday dear, I can't wait no more to see you !! I am gonna start right away.. Love you sweetheart !!"... Rahul's voice was full of excitement when he uttered those words.. It was about 7.35 when Rahul reached Neha's apartment in his new car and gave her a call to let her know that he had reached the apartment..With the pleasant chill climate and the morning breeze blowing gently,this day was the most perfect day anyone could have wished for.. Amidst this gentle wind, Rahul caught the sight of Neha walking towards the car from her apartment.. She was looking totally angelic with her lavender coloured t-shirt and a black jeans.. The gentle wind caused her soft hair to sway which made her look even more beautiful..

Within a few moments, she reached the car and the emotions between them reached greater heights.. It was this moment that both of them had been waiting for !!.. Neha's cute smile made him go crazy and with the josh, Rahul started his car.. Rahul was new to driving on highway, but that did not bother him much..He turned on the music player and both were happily enjoying the ride along the highway..It was about 30 minutes since they started their journey and things had gone as planned..

All of a sudden, a loud beaming sound "BEEP BEEP BEEP !!!!"... The sound was increasing in intensity and Rahul was disturbed by this sound.. It was Rahul's mobile phone alarm.. He was full asleep and with his eyes half open, he realised all of it was a dream.. It was Neha's birthday and the holiday was supposedly planned for today, but she was not with him anymore.. Neha was killed in a terrible accident last week.. Rahul was still not able to overcome her absence, the entire world seemed to be devoid of matter.. He had nothing much to do other than to accept the reality and cope up.. The sound of the alarm and the dream he had, haunted him for quite sometime.. With tears trickling down his cheeks, he painfully uttered the three words "I Miss You !!!" ....

P.S :- I wanted to try my skills in writing a story.. I had dreamt of it for a quite a long time and thought I could end up writing one day.. I hope everyone reading this liked it.. Your comments are welcome !!!

Monday, September 21, 2009

Moment #1 - Happily Drenched in the Rain !!!

After I wrote the "தருணங்கள் - The Moments" post.. I made it a point to celebrate such subtle moments.. And voila, I was gifted with a beautiful moment where I was completely drenched in the rain.. It was much fun and enthralment for us.. Infact, few days before this incident I wished I could drench in the rain, and was lucky enough to experience it soon..

It was September 19th, 2009.. Myself and five friends decided to watch "Unnai Pol Oruvan" an awesome Tamil movie starring Kamal Hasan.. The show was at 4'o clock in the evening.. After the movie we had a pretty decent dinner at Hotel Maduri Grand in Old Airport Road.. When we had finished our dinner, it had rained cats and dogs.. We waited for the rain to lessen in intensity.. After some time, when it was drizzling, we had started to our house.. On our walk back, it again started to rain heavily and the tails within us went upright and we started to run in the rain all the way home !!.. It was so much fun, felt like we turned into kids for those moments.. Happily we reached home totally drenched in the rain!!..

Moment #1 :- Happily Drenched in the Rain !~!~!~!~!

From Left :- Karthick, Saagar,Myself,Vineeth and Venki

Sunday, September 20, 2009

Worth a Reading !!!..

I happened to see this quote while I was browsing.. Its just plain awesome !!.. Hope people reading this would love it too...

"I miss you when something really good happens, because you are the one I want to share it with. I miss you when something is troubling me, because you are the one who understands me so well. I miss you when I laugh and cry because i know that you are the one that makes my laughter grow and my tears disappear. I miss you all the time, but I miss you most when i lay awake at night and think of all the wonderful times we spent with eachother;for those were some of the best times of my life.”

I dedicate this post to THE ONE !!!.. And unfortunately, that position is still vacant !! :) .. Wait, hang on, just a second, should I have mentioned that I was "fortunate" in the previous sentence ;) !!.. LOL.. Ciao !!!

Saturday, September 19, 2009

Are they really 'Emotional Idiots' ?!..

Well, Its a tough topic I am about to write about.. Its sensitive and I wish I am able to express it in the right way.. Moreover, its by fortune that I get to write about this topic on this particular day (Sept 19, due to personal reasons..) I just now happened to see the famous tamil debate show 'Neeya Naana' where the topic was "Is emotional attachment necesary ?!".. But the topic isn't as simple as it sounds, I feel its quite complex something which requires an even more comprehensive discussion...

To begin with, the society has given this particular name 'emotional idiots' for the people who are emotionally attached.. Well, I think not all such people are idiots.. Its just that they are able to feel what the other party isn't able to.. People who tend to be emotionally attached are prone to shed tears if something hurts their emotions (or rather feelings).. This act of shedding tears earns them the name 'idiots'.. But lets try to see that from a different point of view.. You can smile at anyone you wish, irrespective of you like them or not from your heart.. But try shedding few drops of tear voluntarily, its impossible.. I guess, each one of you would accept this point.. As a result the only question that comes to my mind is 'Arent these tears for someone/something who/which had entered the intimate personal circle of the human heart ?!.. Why should they be called as idiots ?!..'

Such so called 'emotional idiots' are being visualised as mere dilemmatic persons, surrounded by an aura of indecisiveness, hopelessness and the most important term used now-a-days 'moving on with life'.. Well the most prominent reason I could ascertain for this misrepresentation of the person is plain anachronism.. The present world even if its beautiful with its nature and lovely people, has gone to this particular stage where materialism has become the order of the day.. There exists no real friendship as compared to the earlier days.. Let me stress on the words 'as compared to the earlier days'.. Thats my point of view, except for the blood relationship, the other present day relationships are kinda materialistic in one way or the other..

Some people belong to the latter category and there are another set of people belonging to the 'emotional idiot' category.. And the simultaneous presence of people from both the categories in the communtiy is the major reason which I could ascribe to, for such an issue which comes up to the level of tv debate shows.. The real solution is no one could be blamed actually.. Each has its own pros and cons.. Being emotional could help you understanding the true pleasure of feelings and love but at the same time it puts you at the risk of being hurt very easily. Being isolated from such emotional feelings may make you strong enough to face any crisis, be independent but it makes it difficult to place yourself in the other person's shoes or makes you a little materialistic..

Well, to be frank I was emotional earlier.. Words and actions offended me, though I could not actually blame the opposite side.. To them it might have been correct, but I have the right to blame only myself. I should have taken the effort to prevent myself from being offended.. Infact, I had cried for someone who had left me.. But I feel that doesn't make me an emotional idiot.. On the loss of something which was precious/importance to you, if you are an human, tears are natural.. The so called 'idiocy' depends on the individual and his/her nature..

On an ending note, I feel that being emotional is good (not an idiocy absolutely), but to survive in this materialistic world where the mantra is 'survival of the fittest', you need to detach yourself emotionally from any person/object.. Learn to live independent.. As far as I am concerned or from what I have learned, there are only an elite circle of people with whom you could be emotional with. The elite circle would obviously be parents, spouse and children... Hope I dint bore you all reading this long post !!!.. Ciao !!! :)

Friday, September 18, 2009

Its been a year !!!

Time is flying so fast... Yeah, It was September 18th, 2008 when I got recruited by Analog Devices Inc., a dream company for many electronic engineers.. It was approximately around this time they had announced the results and I was completely happy and awe-struck.. Nothing much with this post though.. Just wanted to post it to share my happiness with people reading my blog.. :) Ciao !!!

Friday, September 11, 2009

தருணங்கள் - The Moments

Recently, I ended up asking myself a question 'Have I enjoyed every moment in my life, be it good or bad ?!'... Well, its practically not possible to enjoy every moment in life.. So I rephrased the question 'Which one was I good at !?.. Enjoying the best moments or Worrrying for the bad moments' ... Well, still the answer is not that straight-forward.. But am sure, I (or rather 'WE') haven't enjoyed some of the best moments in my life..

Lost in related thoughts, the first moment that strikes me dates back to somewhere in1993.. When I was about 5 years old, I slipped and fell into a pond in a temple.. Without a knowledge about swimming, I drowned in the water.. All the people above at the bank could see was few centimetres of my collar and two or three strands of my hair.. Luckily I was pulled out by a person whose name was also 'Sathappan' (same as mine !! ;) )... If not for that person nor the visibility of the few centimetres of my collar, I would not have been here now enjoying the world and boring (hopefully not) you people reading this blog :) !!..

The other moment that strikes me dates back to somewhere in 2001.. It was the engagement of one of my cousins to be held in Madurai.. I was already there in Madurai and my parents were travelling by car to Madurai.. My dad was kinda new to driving on the highway.. Unfortunately they met with an accident.. The car in which they were travelling collided with a truck and the scenes were pretty bad.. But luckily, both my mom and dad were unhurt in the accident.. It was one of the best moments which just passed on like a normal event.. Probably I was 12 years old by then and now I couldnt imagine where I would have been if something else had happened that day.. Similarly, in 2006, my dad met with another accident in which the car he was travelling, rolled atleast 2 times and landed upside down due to a burst tyre..He was unhurt in this accident too.. There goes another best moment.. These are just some of the best moments in my life which just passed on without much of excitement..

The whole point of this post is that, we normally enjoy almost all occasions like birthday parties, treats for no reason, graduation day, appraisals and almost every other incident which relate so much to fun and enjoyment.. But there are these unnoticed, uncelebrated, subtle and mild moments like I mentioned in the previous paragraphs which do not bring much fun, but our lives would have changed drastically/substantially if they had happened the other way.. I guess its the same with anyone of you reading this post.. I remember the dates of my graduation, my friend's birthdays etc.. but frankly, I don't remember the dates for these 3 days.. The only reason I am able to find is that, maybe I din't enjoy these moments as much as the other moments..

Well, the idea for this post came after I heard a sentence from a tamil movie called 'Tamil M.A' which goes like this "வாழ்க்கையின் சில சுவையான தருணங்கள், ரசிக்க படாமலே போய்விடுகின்றன".. The english translation of this sentence is "There are certain sweet moments in life, which go totally unnoticed"..

As an ending note, I am sure, if you could spend sometime after reading this post thinking about similiar unnoticed moments, you would have had a handful of them.. If one accquires the ability to enjoy such moments, life would be much sweeter than what it is now !!!.. :) .. Ciao !!!..

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Lets fall in LOVE !!!!

Love.. Does it need an introduction ?!.. The best feeling one can ever experience.. Say the word 'Love', Talk about 'Love', I bet you wouldn't have felt anything great.. Feel 'Love', you would have experienced the greatest pleasure on earth.. Maybe that's why even the smaller, lighter, trivial things/feelings between lovers seem very funny/comical for a third person.. These feelings when ditched mean a lot to the concerned.. I can say that 'Love' is purely a feeling which has no meaning other than feeling that comes with it..

I don't think anyone could actually define 'Love'.. Well, leaving apart the normal dialogue n stuff "Love is blind, Love is that, Love is this".. Think again, Is Love thats it ?!.. Isn't it something more ?!. Ever experienced the thousand butterflies flying within your body, just because you got a compliment from the ONE for a simple thing you did..Ever experienced the completeness it brings, when the ONE is with you... Ever experienced the longevity of time, when waiting for the ONE to meet after quite some time.. Ever experienced the shortness of time, when departing from the ONE.. Ever experienced the magnitude of happiness it brings, just to see the ONE wear a smile on their face.. Ever experienced the worthiness of 5 minutes, when the ONE says a bye.. Ever experienced the humungus pleasure, when holding the hands of the ONE.. Ever experienced the frustration, when you end up in a fight with the ONE.. Ever experienced the specialness, just beccause the ONE loves you so much in return.. Ever experienced the support of a shoulder, the ONE gives you when you are down..Ever experienced the emptiness of the world, when the ONE is not there with you...Well, I can keep going on.. These are just a few of the things which strike me now as I write this post.. If you haven't experienced such a feeling, you are missing something in life.. The beauty of love is that you come to know what it is all about only after experiencing it..

Well, in the previous paragraph, I hadn't typed the word 'ONE' in all capital letters without a meaning.. I do wanna stress on the fact that.. Only if its ONE, its called 'love', else its just plain 'lust' ( courtesy to Tamil Movie 'Nadhodigal') which I totally accept... I just liked the picture which I have added to this post so much.. On the first glimpse of the picture, this is what I could feel from it, "Two hearts, though they differ totally in texture, colour, material, appearance (could be compared to two persons with different attitude, different nature, different behavior), yet they are attached together soo much.." To find another person who is an exact replica of you is difficult.. It is the ONE (who is totally different from you) who will compensate you for your negatives, praise you for your positives, stand for you, be with you no matter what just like the two hearts which are together in this picture..

People often say 'Love' to be a waste of time.. I have to disagree with it.. I would rather put it as love shouldn't be a 'priority' and also it shouldnt be neglected as 'unnecessary'... It makes life worth living.. I wanted to write about 'Love' for quite sometime.. I am happy to have seen this picture, which pushed me to write this post at once.. Love is the one thing which adds all the flavour to the intimate things in life.. I would like end the post with the quote "Love makes Life Beautiful".. :)

P.S :- My favourite line from a song "In your arms, I still feel the way you want me, when you hold me !!!".. The song is "Forever and for always" by Shania Twain.. If interested, please do check out the video on YouTube.. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vjOdr5hs-BU

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Iruvar - - - Entire Poem at the Climax..

Well I had posted only a few lines from the climax in the last post.. I felt I wasn't doing justice by cutting lines from the dialogue, so I ll post the entire dialogue in this post.. It goes like this..

Ennarum thozhane,idayathu nanbane !
Manikka mazhayae,maraindhu vittaya?
Munnoru pozhudil,meesai mulaikkira vayadil,
Or ilayil sorundom..
Oru paayil kan malarndom..
Anda ninaivugalin kanneeril, nenjukuzhi niraikiradhu..

Nam kangal vevveru,kanavugal onrundaan!!
Nam nejnam vevveru, ninaivugal onrudhaan!!
Nam kottaigal vevvru, kozhgaigal onrudhaa!!

Edhilum mundi vara thudikkum munaipullavane..
Saavilum ennai mundi sarithiram ayinayo?

En vetrikku malai thanda karam enge?
En vizhi neerai sunditivitta viral enge?
Kuzhal konda isayaaga konjunginra kural enge?
En muthuvel vasanathai muthamitta uthadu enge?
Ennai oor naal sumandu yetri vandda thol enge?

Ayyago..!!!.
Ini paarkave mattaya nanba?

Ellin munai alavum ippozhudu kasappillai
Pullin nuni alavum ippozhudu pagai illai
Maranathai pola en manathirkku marundillai

Unnodu oru vaarthai pesathaan ninaithen,mudiyavillai
Nalindu vitta udal varudi nalam ketka thudithen,mudiyavillai
Indru un roja poo mugathil muthamida ninaikiren,mudiyavillai
Mutti varum kannerai mudivida ninaikiren,mudiyavillai

Poi vaa nanba poi vaa..

Un pakktahil enakkum oru padukkai virithu vai
Enrenum oru naal un arugil naan varuven
Innoru ponneram ennai thedi vanthaal
Kaalam oru sengolai en kaiyil thandaal
Un kanavum en kanavunm oru pozhudil niraiverum
Un kallarayin kaadhugalil nalla seidhi arangerum!!!!

I hope everyone likes this dialogue as I do !!! :)

Iruvar - - - A Master Piece ...

I happened to see this movie only after 12 long years from its release date.. Indeed, it was one of the best movies I have ever seen.. I was moved to tears when the movie ended.. Hats off to Mani Ratnam for this excellent movie.. The sad part is that, there are only a handful of people among the entire tamil population who love such kind of movies.. This movie is a fictional story of the lead politicians of Tamil Nadu, M.G.R and M.Karunanidhi...

This movie had the right proportion of everything.. It had the fine depictions of friendship, love, pain, hurt, jealousy, betrayal, leadership, loss, disappointment, trust, victory etc... The short poem depicting love between Prakash Raj (Tamizhselvan in the movie) and Tabu was very well written.. It goes like

உன்னோடு நான் இருந்த ஒவ்வொரு மணித்துளியும்
மரணப் படுகையிலும் மறக்காது கண்மணியே!

தொண்ணூறு நிமிடங்கள் தொட்டனைத்த காலம்தான்
எண்ணூறு ஆண்டுகளாய் இதயத்தில் கனக்குதடி!

பார்வையிலே சில நிமிடம் பயத்தோடு சில நிமிடம்
கட்டி அணைத்தபடி கண்ணீரில் சில நிமிடம்!

இலக்கணமே பாராமல் எல்லா இடங்களிலும்
முத்தங்கள் விதைத்த மோகத்தில் சில நிமிடம்!!

உன்னோடு நான் இருந்த ஒவ்வொரு மணித்துளியும்
மரணப் படுகையிலும் மறக்காது கண்மணியே!

எது ஞாயம் எது பாவம் இருவருக்கும் தோன்றவில்லை
அது இரவா அது பகல அதுபற்றி அறியவில்லை!

யார் தொடங்க? யார் முடிக்க? ஒரு வழியும் தோன்றவில்லை
இருவருமே தொடங்கிவிட்டோம் இது வரைக்கும் கேள்வி இல்லை!

அச்சம் கலைந்தேன் ஆசையினை நீ அடைந்தாய்
ஆடை கலைந்தேன் வெட்கத்தை நீ அடைந்தாய்!

கண்ட திருகோலங்கள் கணவாக மறைந்தாலும்
கடைசியில் அழுத கண்ணீர் கையில் இன்னும் ஒட்டுதடி!

உன்னோடு நான் இருந்த ஒவ்வொரு மணித்துளியும்!
மரணப் படுக்கையிலும் மறக்காது கண்மணியே!!

The best scene which I loved in the movie was when Mohanlal (Anandhan in the movie) asks the people in the car to step down when they start talking bad about Prakash Raj who was his close friend.. The climax was even more touching.. Prakash Raj and Mohanlal, who were once best friends, developed active enmity during the course of time.. But still,Prakash Raj on hearing Mohanlal's death gets shocked and leaves to the ceremony to pay his final respect which emphasized the height of humanity in the character... The short poem at the climax of the movie deserves mention.. I will quote some of the best lines which I liked from the climax..

Ellin munai alavum ippozhudu kasappillai
Pullin nuni alavum ippozhudu pagai illai
Maranathai pola en manathirkku marundillai

Unnodu oru vaarthai pesathaan ninaithen,mudiyavillai
Nalindu vitta udal varudi nalam ketka thudithen,mudiyavillai
Indru un roja poo mugathil muthamida ninaikiren,mudiyavillai
Mutti varum kannerai mudivida ninaikiren,mudiyavillai

These lines just depict the longings of a mind which had lost its soul... The mindset of the person while uttering these lines, the way he longs for the extra time (may be a matter of minutes) which he could have got to spend with his\her loved one, the pain to understand that the loved one ceases to exist no more in his\her life,the intolerable pain created in the heart... These emotions were beautifully portrayed.. To say it in a word, 'marvelous'... Hoping to see such movies in the days to come !!!...

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