Caffeinated Thoughts...

Well, where do I start with about with this post, It was a long pending one in my mind except for the fact I dint have the sufficient time to pen down... Intel ( INTegrated ELectronics) obviously remains to be the dream shot for any electronics engineer.. And am obviously proud to say I had the opportunity to work and start my career with Intel as an Intern.. Intel had always been one of my dream companies... I still remember the days when I was a kid when I used to tell my mom that I would work in Intel one day.. Luckily I had to start my career with it.. Happy that lucky star shone on me with this ;)...

Being an Intern, my work wasn't that burdensome.. As I had mentioned in my previous post, the work assigned to me demanded more of my physical presence... As it goes, to become a king one day you need to start all the way from down.. Well my attitude basically is that,

The work I did became monotonous as days passed by, but never-the-less the learning curve wasn't a perfect flat line ;).. I had an opportunity to learn something new... Apart from the work, the environment at Intel was awesome..There was no such prominent senior-junior stuff among the employees.. We, interns, were treated equally as employees and where allowed to enjoy every right the employees possessed..The infrastructure, amenities, employee benefits, organisation was way too good..

Wish I hadn't gone through the mental trauma due to personal reasons during the internship, which would have made me enjoy the Life @ Intel to the fullest... In-short, life @ Intel was some fun..

Well, Its 10 : 30 p.m now and I start writing this post to wade away my random thoughts and wild emotions which exudes from my heart after I saw something which highly disturbs my mind.. The emotions are quite complicated ranging from vengeance, disappointment, love, affection, embarrasment and what not... I know these emotions stop me from reaching my destiny.. The thing I was really destined for... I need to pull over this negative energy which is cropping up around me somehow... And so 'blogging' was the solution which struck me...

It all started on November 29th, 2008 at around 9 a.m when I stepped out of my house with tons of dreams and confidence to achieve something in life without a single clue of what was in store for me for the upcoming six months.. We (a group of 3 friends) caught a flight and landed in Bangalore in the afternoon.. Being a weekend, we didn't have much of work to do and we decided to shop everything we needed to setup a home (toiletries,beds n other stuff).. The first time I ever did something on my own.. It was a nice experience :) ..

December started off with a huge thrill with me entering the corporate world for the first time with bit of nervousness and with booming confidence to achieve something.. The first two days went up with an orientation programme wherein we were told about all the usual facts and stuff about the company policies and regulations.. It was actually a group of 50 people who had joined Intel at the same time as me as interns.. Initially, I was put down on getting to know the work that I was supposed to do for the next 6 months.. The work assigned to me demanded more of my physical contribution than the mental contribution...

As days passed by, I found myself basked in a deep sense of loneliness...The persistent feeling of loneliness creeping up within me, the disappointment in the work I had to do, the disappointment that I wasn't enjoying the final days of my college as my friends did back home, the puzzling and mysterious conflicts between me and my dearest friend on this planet; went hand in hand with each other serving me with a perfect nightmare I had to live up with for the five whole months!!!.. Now, I feel that I have pushed the wrong buttons, I had failed to stand up for myself at situations where I should have been fighting..

Nevertheless, I am happy that these days dint leave a brutal mark over me but taught me 'what life is ?!..' and 'who people are ?!..'... I learnt bad times are surely a scale of measuring the benevolence of the people whom you call as friends... I learnt that a relationship is always to be evenly matched, you seem to be a Stupid if you continue to do things when you are perfectly taken in as a duck on the other side.. The biggest of all, I was able to assess the character of the people around me and pick out people whom I can confide and trust in..

Now, I am counting the last days of internship here at Intel... By the 20th of May, I will have to bid adieu to this part of my life which taught more lessons (to be taken as the lessons of Life rather than the technical stuff) than ever and also the part of my life which witnessed the loss of my dearest friend on earth!!!... I can never really get back these days and perfectly there's no use of fretting about it now... It taught me 'Happiness is a voyage; not a destination'.... I am sure I am seeing Life with a much better clarity than I used to before I came for my Internship...

Its high time for me to gear up, throwing away all those negative energy and forces around me!!!.. To rise from the deep and conquer my dreams... I am happy to say "I am back !!!"......